is what my day revolved around.
Concert.
Chinese food.
Chocolate.Cheap Vodka.
Yes, so AWESOME day. Now I’m hanging out with Kristen. Who is ignoring me and is doing her homework. Lame.
I’m still a little iffy about the concert thing but I hope everything goes as planned. Because that’d be AWESOME.
Is a good day so far. No complaints from me. Concert and chinese food. YESSS!!!!
Poor Megan, though. She’s out there weeding. Breaking her back, doing actual work. Hey! At least she’s getting paid for it.
Kristen: This is such a weird way to do this.
Me: TWSS.
Kristen: I should have known.
I’ve had in a long time.
No school today. again. for the fourth time in a row. Wow.
Anyways, I’m so in on this bet. She’s definately going to get back with her. No joke. Beh.
Um, so I’m in the mood to do something but I don’t know what. I don’t feel restless, just a little something else?
I can’t choose a song. I can’t sit and watch a show. I can’t start writing a story. I can’t sit down and read a story. I can’t go on a walk because I don’t want to get raped. well.
I might look for a movie and then lay down to watch it. Just to get lost for a while.
“I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world
Just to lie you’ve got to rise above” Hm.
So I didn’t post anything yesterday. Um. Well, we didn’t have school yesterday! And we don’t have school today.
Um, I’m about to go do the beds and then clean my room a bit. Brittany might come over later to watch a few episodes of our show. Ashley might come over too but for other reasons. Poor her. :/
I’ll probably post more in a little bit. Because I can.
No school tomorrow!!
Which probably means I’m taking more pictures.
Um. I’m hanging out with Kristen. Eatin’ some oyster crackers.
THE GAME DOAHOE!!!
YAY!!!1!!!11!!! \o/
Actually, most of the kids are going to be angry that we used our last snow day today. Beh. It gets me out of school and in my warm, warm bed. With Teddy!!
I’m going out later to get pictures of the snow for our Photo project. Can’t wait. I’m taking a bottle of water out there so I can make ice and take pictures of that too.
It’s what I’m eating right now.
While I’m trying to forget to feel bad. I sure as hell know she’s not still thinking about it, why the hell should I?
Do I feel bad about it? Yes. I never meant to hurt her feelings.
Should I lose sleep over it? No. I’ll apologize tomorrow. I’ll say something really meaningful and she’ll say, “It’s okay. Don’t worry about it.” and then just blow it off. Like I did to her today.
Ouch. Burn to myself. Nice.
To 2:55 today. When I was actually HAPPY. And then do things right from there.
goes to me. SERIOUSLY.
Like, um, why the FUCK did I do that?!
REALLY?! FUCKING REALLY?!
I’m probably making it more of a big deal than it is but I feel so FUCKING horrible. DAMMIT!!
Okay. So Emily was so fucking adorably nice enough to try to offer to take me home today. And I was really happy about it. Maybe a little bit too excited. So okay, I left 7th period and got to my locker and got my stuff and then ran into Brittany who wanted to know why I was so damn happy. Well, we took a little longer than I would have hoped for in the hallway and by the time I got to Emily’s locker I didn’t see her so I panicked. Brittany was still walking with me so I asked her if she wanted to take me home. She said yes so we kept walking down the hallway and that’s when I saw Emily. She had been trying to call me but I hadn’t felt my phone. She was standing by the door and she was like, “It’s awesome how you know how to answer your phone!” and I told her I was sorry and that Brittany was taking me home and then I just. left.
WHAT?! JUST WHAT THE FUCK?!
I feel like such a douche now. DAMN.
The more I think about it the more mad I get at myself.
I will now retreat into my emo corner.
THIS FUCKING SUCKS! I was so happy this afternoon, which was such a change from this weekend and now I’m back on my mood again.
FUCKING FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!
HI COURTNEY!!!!
YOU JUST LOST THE GAME!
So I just finished that comic. 1,325 web pages of awesome! And it only took me 2 days!
I’m in photo class right now. Well, aiding Mrs. Carr. We’re in 5th period and going to 4th period next. We had a two hour delay so our sschedule is messed up. Ag is next and then I’m back in the photo room.
If I Only Had The Heart - The Maine
I know I sound repetitive,
Cause I’m repeating myself,
And I’m competitive,
I want you all by yourself.
And that alone is just the problem,
I’ve got these woes,
And I just can’t solve them.
If I could gather up the nerve,
I’d put my feelings into words,
And if I weren’t so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.
You’d think by now I would have learned
No really. It doesn’t feel like it’s Saturday or 9pm. How did the day go by so fast? And why does it feel so weird that no one is talking to me?
Actually, I just think that I’m waiting for that certain someone to call me and I’m 99.9% sure they won’t. Which sucks. It’d be the first time in 5 weeks that she doesn’t call me on Saturday.
Boo.
‘Why WOULDN’T you wan to go to naptime early? Heck. I want to go to nap time early…’-Me ‘Do you want to die?’ -K ‘…everyday.’ -Me
TO KRISTEN!!
You’re finally 18!
is okay.
I was having a good day before 5th period. This is crap. Whatevs, yo. Mrs. Snyder can suck it.
Having lunch in the photo room. By myself. Whoo. :| I think I’m going to get a jump start on my aiding.
Photo next. Yay!
I’m about to cave. Wish I was stronger. Fuck. 6 minutes until my doom. Damn.
